dear friend. (go back »)

I wont waist my time telling you my past because well, no-one but me relay cares, your the only one who will understand me... if you can.

Life is hectic, i have a million things to do, but all want to do is sleep. sometimes i wish i could jsut sleep and never wake up, but then the alarm on my phone goes off i'm late, and i snap back to my reality. notise its MY reality, my reality is much more complex than others mostly because i think way more than a normal teen. i plan out everythign i do and when things dont go as planned... i get ancous and have panic atacks. my entire life has started to run into one big blure of living sleep/death. i rarly have the time to relax, im running here on my way to there when i need to be somewhere else.

Know what i realy hate? Those people that think everyone has all the time in the world, i hate slow people walling down the halls like they have nowhere to be, ugh its like im a ticking time bomb and everyone wants to die! Rawr! Then suddenly im laughing and pushing, i have to act happy, in not alone anymore. but with my friends, ... my mood... unconsious. i walk day on day looking out a strangers eyes, the foggy glass pupels hard to clear, i walk, to nowhere, even when i have so many places to go.